A lot of you guys have noticed that I haven't blogged much this year. And some have even emailed, but mainly tweeted asking if I am alright and if I'm leaving the blogosphere. The answer to those questions are... no, I'm not leaving and yes - I'm alright, now.
Basically, I've already touched on this topic, but at the start of the year, I was really, really unwell. So unwell, that I found it hard to leave my bed, let alone write 5 blog posts a week!
Buuuuut, during this time I kept a poetic diary. The reason I'm bringing that up is because I published it.
I chose to let the world read my thoughts because writing this was really therapeutic and was play a big part of my recovery. So much so, that I was curious if anyone else going through serious mental health problems would benefit from reading it.
My poems are split into 5 chapters: denial, delusion, despair, defiance and dignity. These are the stages I went through before I found a new love for myself and embraced my 'otherness'.
That sounds insane, right? I mean, would you publish your deepest thoughts that were meant only for your eyes?
I think the really odd thing is that I wasn't even a poetry fan. I studied the classics at school, but that was it. It was only when I was about to publish that I discovered the likes of April Green, Madisen Khun, Nayyirah Waheed, Ysra Daley-Ward, Rupi Kaur, Lang Leav, Alison Malee and Nikita Gill through Instagram. I class these women as contemporary confessional poets/micropoets and really hope you check them out.
Although I had already written my book by the time I found them, they are all a huge inspiration, because they are fearless and unapologetic through their writing.
So, yes, it's really scary and nerve-wracking to know that friends , family and total strangers are reading my brutally honest (an often uncomfortable) thoughts from early this year, but I am so glad I didn't back out.
I would like to say a big THANK YOU to everyone who has supported the book so far. It really means a lot!
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This book isn't just for me - it's for everyone.